One of two minds

            Her past was hidden from her in a dark haze. The last eight years of her life was gone. She woke up yesterday. She didn’t know where was or how she got there. Nothing seemed to make sense. The place she woke up in was far from being the house she grow up in. She was raised in a little town in Missouri called Cameron. Her family wasn’t rich but no one from Cameron is. She had grown up in a house right out side Cameron on a little hill. She tried to remember that house but she couldn’t. She remembered that was where she came from but she could remember what the house looked like or even where Cameron was. For that matter she didn’t know where was. She looked down at her body she naked. She covered in scars. She looked a little closer. She long cuts on her hips. They were old and have healed. Most of the cuts were small but others were big. Most of the scars have healed but there was a deep cut on her arm. It had stiches but it didn’t look right. She didn’t know how she known but she new a doctor didn’t sew her up.  She had a tattoo on her left ankle of a snake. She could remember getting the tattoo but than again she could remember much of anything. She was laying on a bed with a bloodstain on the right side; the bloodstain was big and dark. Who ever bleed out there is not alive.  She thought darkly.  She shook the thought away or at least tried to but the thought remained firmly in her mind. She looked back at the bed. There were no blankets and there were no sheets. The room wasn’t cold and wasn’t hot. She looked around the room. There wasn’t much in the room. There was a broken TV with the screen knocked in, a lot of battle of alcohol by the bed and some blinds on a window.  The blinks were a dark red color.  The blinds on the window reminded her of the bloodstain on the bed. She quick realized red was the only color in the room.  Ever thing else in the room was white.

            An image flashed in her mind. White pills. The images was of her and white pills. The image flashed in her mind in her mind again but this time more clearly. The pills had little blue specks in them. There were two pills in her hand and they were white with blue specks in them. She had dark blue nail polish on and it had chucks of glitter in it. Her hand was shaken. The images in her mind didn’t make sense to her and she wanted them to go away. She didn’t know why but she didn’t think those images. She didn’t like the thoughts that went though her mind when the images were in her mind. A voice from somewhere made her jump. She looked around the room but there was no one. She didn’t hear what was said but she heard the voice.

            “The pills make everything go away. We have to find the pills.” Said the voice. She once again looked around the room to find no one there. She went to the window and looked through the blinds. It was dark out side and there was no there.   

            “ Vicky, Its me, you remember me. I am Nicky and we happen to be sharing this body. At that moment she realized why she couldn’t find where the voice of coming from. The voice was in her head and had a name.

            “ What do you want?” Vicky said with a shaky voice.  Nicky just laughed.    Vicky went back to the bed and sat down because she began to feel sick. She felt that the room was going to start spinning at any moment but it didn’t. The room didn’t move and she didn’t move she just sat there. Vicky began to shake her head like that was going to change something was going change. Vicky was wishing that someone would walk in to the room and say that it was all a twisted joke but that didn’t happen.

            “I came from you. You couldn’t deal. So, you created me to deal for you. I want what you want. I want the pills to help you. You need the pills. We need the pills to help you forget.”  Vicky quivered.

            No, there is a mistake. I can’t remember anything and your haunting the wrong girl. Vicky almost screamed but really no words left her lips but it didn’t matter because Nicky heard every word unmistakably. Nicky laughed cold in side Vicky’s head. Let me make my self very clear to you. I am the one that keep the past from making you melt down again. I am the one that saves your ass over and over again. Do I want a think you? No. All I want is the pills. So, I can help you again but with out those pill. You are on your own. You may think you are really but you have said that before and every time I let you remember you cut. You can face what happen to us and I need the damn pills. I needed them now. I hide some in a bottle behind the third brick from the right of the window. There should be two there. Now go get them. Now

            Vicky just sat on the bed not saying a word. She just glared into open space. If anyone had seen her they would have thought she lost her mind or that she was in shock. Maybe she was both out of her mind and in shock but she wasn’t giving up the fight.

            I don’t know who you are but this is my body I want you out of my mind you don’t belong here this my mind and I don’t want you in my mind anymore leave my mind alone leave me alone

            Nicky laughed in Vicky’s head again.  No this is our mind Vicky I am a part of you and if you want me to go away take the pill and I wont even have to be here anymore take the pill Vicky I don’t even want to be here

Vicky sat up straight on the bed. Really all I have to do is take the pill and you will leave me alone. I will have my mind back and you will just be gone.

Vicky didn’t wait for a response. She got up from the bed and went to the window. She counted three bricks and pulled the brick from the wall. There was a pill bottle there just like Nicky said there would be. On the pill bottle Nicky’s name was painted on with purple glitter paint. Vicky opened the bottle to find the two pills. She poured the pills on to her palm and thrown the pill bottle behind her. She didn’t look where the bottle landed. She walked over to the bed and opened a bottle of vodka. She quickly put the pills in her mouth, than took a long hard drank of the vodka. It burned going down her throat. She sat on the bed. A cloud of darken began to fill her mind. As Vicky’s world became farther and farther away from her. She heard a voice that seemed to be from far away. “Finally, I am FREE.”